Fly High
My eyes are closed and I’m 32,005 ft above the Earth
Traveling at 489 miles per hour
Traveling from Nashville to San Diego
The mountains below me stand tall and proud, unapologetic for the space they assume
The clouds lift my spirit as we fly high above most of the collective consciousness which resides below us
Rivers below my window flow ever so changingly, in a way that it will never be the same river as it was just moments before. In my observation they are still, picture perfect, poise and glass like
The gentle observation of our presence is intoxicating
Life is full of love, pleasure and boundless positive opportunities if we elect to set ourselves free
This is how I feel once I realign through transcendental meditation
Allow me to paint of picture:
Morning meditation, followed by a lovely sunrise vinyasa, my newlywed husband smiles as he captures an authentic picture of my practice
It all used to really bother me before
People watching me, I could feel their judgement, I created ideas of their criticism and I lacked the courageousness that fills my soul today
Now I stand tall and proud as the mountains below me do
Its all an incremental accumulation of many hours of practice
As if every minute were a rung on a ladder, I have climbed high to proudly sit at the level I am functioning on today
Over 32,400 minutes of meditation, over 200 hours of formal yoga teacher training, over 3,000 hours of studying yoga philosophy and an abundant amount of curiosity, patience and dedication to healing
Not just for me, but for my clients, for my family, for my daughter, for my students, for my teachers, for all of the people I have not met and for all of those searching for an answer, a cure, a way of returning home to themselves
You see there is a sense of purpose I resonate with deeply, a knowing concrete in my bones that I am destined for greatness, that I am meant to heal, that I am a warrior who proudly bears her scars and speaks honest love onto those who seek help
I am the trailblazer of my generation
I am the woman who did that crazy thing
Who listened to her intuition
Who took a leap of faith into the darkness of the unknown and went against all professional recommendations and listened to her heart
Every allopathic professional I invested hundreds and even thousands of dollars in, looked me dead in the eyes and said “it’s only going to get worse” and “there is no cure”
I only ever walked out with a new prescription, new lab order, new MRI, new x-ray, new referral
More and more hard earned money poured into a bottomless pit of despair
My symptoms got worse
I became acutely ill more days than not, it all started as “the flu”; intense fatigue to the point I could not get out of bed, a low grade fever, chills, severe muscle weakness and feeling like a ton of bricks lie ontop of every inch of my body
After 3 days I slowly improved, I could walk again, I could eat and I felt “better”
But the stress accumulated, my personal life disintegrated, my work life took a turn for the worst and I was hospitalized
It seamed like the universe was out to get me, but what I did not know at that time was everything was happening FOR me, not TO me
Now its much easier to see, after I have conquered my illness, after I developed a healing regimen, a breadcrumb trail of how to find my way back to healing if I ever need it again
&& more meaningful than anything is..
I get to share that with you
This newfound awareness of healing is innate in all of us, we all hold the potential if we move through the obstacle course of life
Some paths are more challenging than others, but the only way to find out what works is to take that first step
So today do something for you, meditate for 3 minutes, take three deep breaths and feel how your chest and belly expand, feel the spirit in your breath, the spirit in your stillness, the spirit in your heart that is always there ready to heal you, if you just pay attention to it
Energy flows where attention goes
So how will you flow today?
Against the current?
Or soften, surrender, tilt your head back, float and allow the wild ride of life to carry you, exactly where you are meant to be