To Those of You Suffering Out There

Gorgeous Goddess, I see you.

But even more sincerely.. I understand what it’s like to walk a day of life in your shoes. Don’t let the glamorous photos and inspiring messages I post & preach hide the pain I’ve experienced. I want you to know you are NOT alone. I’ve created my coaching business so another woman would NEVER go through their battle of autoimmune disease without the help of someone who lived it, breathed it, fought it, surrounded to it & ultimately overcame it.

You see.. whatever you are going through is just a test. The universe knows your strength & values your worth that’s why this is happening. Somewhere in your life you are out of alignment. Maybe your stuck in a toxic relationship and don’t know how to get out. Maybe you love food more than you love yourself. Maybe you have an iron will that is killing you. Maybe its a job that you’ve accepted because it checks 3 out of 4 boxes, pays good money and provides stability.. but deep down you know your heart & soul is being called to practice elsewhere.

I denied the very same beliefs for years until it started to kill me.. literally. I became so sick with autoimmune disease that my body left me no other choice than to SLOW DOWN. To rest, to honor my body, to listen to my intuition & finally heal.

But it didn’t happen overnight. The energetic work I started practicing in 2020 and still do to this date works very subtly. Some days I wept for hours fearful of death, afraid of loosing everything I worked so hard to gain, scared my daughter would live this life without me too soon.

Then I realized.. the only thing to fear is fear itself.

As I became more and more conscious of my malicious habits programmed deep under the surface of my conscious mind, waves of embarrassment, anger, deep sadness and disappointment in myself moved through my body for the first time. Finally I was processing everything I had been through. There were SO MANY events, traumas, beliefs and relationships I suppressed deep within the shadows of my being. Shining the light of awareness of these dark pieces of me was painful. Not only physically painful (I am pretty good at handling that) emotionally painful. The kind of pain that tears the construct of your identity to pieces leaving you feeling broken and misunderstood.. in search of who you really are.

The dark night of the soul seemed like a never ending nightmare for me as a purged the remembrance of so many traumatizing memories. I held myself as I comforted the child in me as my tears baptized my being.

Day after day.

&& I continued to do the work.

Practice the 8 limbs of yoga, nourish my body & repeat.

Every damn day.

Then.. something beautiful happened.

They say the crack is what lets the light in.

Those days alone in my apartment sobbing on the floor crying out to a Higher Power for help were not ignored.

Those days in the shower where I would lift my hands and pray for healing were (are) Divinely observed.

You see everything is just a matter of time.

Every single thing you do matters. Every thought, every feeling, every emotion, every belief, every action, every habit builds upon itself.

When you begin to endeavor upon the journey of healing by nourishing your body with food from the Earth, moving your body mindfully everyday, speaking the truth, acting with unconditional love, forgiving yourself and others, balancing the yin & yang (feminine & masculine) energies within you & your reality, dedicating yourself to meditate daily - surrendering yourself to The Highest Love & Light - you will heal.

Each and every day. No matter how painful it is. No matter how much your negative Ego may put up a fight or attempt to distract you. No matter how many (toxic) relationships you loose. No matter how lost you begin to feel. No matter how much your body changes. Every day you heal.

Those small incremental changes may not seem like much. It may even be EXTREMELY difficult to appreciate from your own perspective. But you are transforming. You are transcending. You are evolving. You are healing.

Then like magic one day you see it. You notice you don’t need to sleep as much. You notice you actually feel full. You notice how damn strong you are & you wonder what else you can do.

So you explore. You challenge yourself. You make new relationships & set new boundaries. You develop an identity with integrity and you realize how powerful you are.

What you do after that is up to you.

For me I am on a mission to share this wisdom with you.

So what are you waiting for?

I am here for you. Patiently waiting for you. Ready to help you. I just ask you to stay open, commit to transformation and release what no longer serves you.

Your life depends on it.